I got this picture from my Facebook friend Leslie. It was soooo appropriate for me today! |
I am 9.75 miles away from completing my 40/40 challenge, which ends on Saturday. And let me say this, it was definitely a challenge for me to run 3.25 miles this morning. My asthma was the source of my struggle. Whenever the weather changes drastically, my system goes haywire and does not stabilize until the weather does. Although I completed my miles, I had to run in half mile intervals today. I felt like I was running on fumes, because I was not getting enough oxygen to fuel a consistent run. Nevertheless I finished it. On top of my asthma, my back is killing me. The period before my period is the worse period of all. My back feels like a vice is clamping down on me, and one wrong move and I am done. My feet hurt, my knees hurt AND I am physically and mentally exhausted. Nevertheless I finished my run.
Here’s what I realized about myself as I struggled to do what I set out to accomplish. I could have very well said, “I’m not running today, because I can’t breathe”, and that would have been completely acceptable. But I realized that my determination and focus to reach my goals are SO sharp, that there isn’t much that can stop me. Not my asthma, not my knees, not my schedule, not my irritability, not my mother needing me to run an errand, not my friends wanting to hang out. There’s not anything anyone can do to change a made up mind. For the first time in my life, I am putting Stacey at the top of my to do list, and it feels great. I also realized that I am a different person than I was a year ago. I don’t think the same and excuses are no longer a part of my DNA. This is just another benefit of going through this journey. It’s also good to know that I am no longer an insane person, because what I know for sure is if you want different results, you have to do things differently, and that is exactly what I am doing!
~Stacey